Hey everyone! I hope you're all staying safe and warm. On today's post I just wanted to set the record straight about something that has been brought to my attention lately. For those of you that have known me for a while, I'm sure you have noticed my drastic change in personal style lately. Yes, my style has changed. I'm not into wearing bows, ruffles or cute little dresses right now and I don't feel like being conservative with my outfits. I consider myself a style chameleon, I have always had such an extreme personality and it bubbles over into my style as well as my taste in music and interests. It is not unheard of for me to completely abandon my current look for an entirely adverse one. As a creative soul, I get bored very easily and resort to an erratic change very often.
I realize that the way I'm dressing lately is turning a few heads around here, okay lots of heads and some are not in a positive way... okay most are not. This is the South, home of the judgmental, conservative, God fearing folk. I get it. I'm in the wrong state to be walking around in what I do, so I honestly don't blame you for looking at me like I just left that shady motel you pass on the way to work everyday. However, my current style (current being the keyword here) is not meant to define the kind of person I am, just like tattoos and piercings don't define the person wearing them. The coolest, kindest people are covered in tats from head to toe. I am for the most part, a good person. I believe in God and pray to him about everyone in my life every night. I don't sleep around or stay out every night partying. Most the time Im here, in my bed on netflix or pinterest... sad but true. I constantly go out of my way to help someone out or to cheer them up, I don't judge others and I am all about kindness, equality and treating every human being the way I wish to be treated. I'm not exclaiming I'm a saint by any means but I am certainly not the little harlot you might think I am.
I guess I should explain my past. Growing up I was known as Miss goody two shoes. I didn't drink or do drugs, I didn't go out and party like all my friends were doing. The most experimenting I did with my look was wear skinny jeans and submerse my eyes in black eyeliner. In school I just tried to blend in and dress like the cool kids because being myself was just out of the question , I just wanted to fit in and be liked and at the time that meant straying from what I liked. I'm a late bloomer in pretty much everything in life and I guess you could say I'm just now going through those kind of phases. I'm just now acting out and being extravagant with my style because I was too scared to back then. Now that doesn't mean I'm going out every night and hooking up, it also doesn't mean I'm off doing drugs either. I don't even smoke cigarettes or weed, not that that's bad thing. I do drink but not as often as you might think. I'm not acting out in those ways even though my current demeanor might say otherwise. By acting out I mean I'm pushing boundaries with what I can and can't get away with style wise. It is solely based on fashion for me.
Most girls my age in the South either wear chevron tunics, monogrammed scarves, purses or necklaces and skinny jeans with brown riding boots or tunic dresses with cowboy boots or their boyfriends fishing shirts with runner shorts and Costas. And that's great, if thats what you like, more power to you! But that's not me and it never will be. I am no longer that apprehensive little girl who only cared about fitting in. I would not only be miserable knowing I look like everyone else but I would be angry with myself for trying to be something I'm not. I was born to stand out, to be different and to have my own style. I have too much passion and creativity running through my veins to blend in with the norm. I wasn't able to see and fully understand that until recently. What attire I choose to put on and the way I view fashion is what makes me unique, its what sets me apart from the rest of the world.
And okay I'm going to be honest with you, I enjoy the uncomfortable vibe I pick up when people notice what I have on. Maybe a little more than I should. Sometimes I don't want to be pretty and classy looking, sometimes I just want to wear crazy embellished leggings, my leather jacket and throw a beanie on. To me fashion is not about looking cute or pretty or classy or even sane, yes thats nice sometimes but I would much rather have someone thinking I'm off my rocker than them passing it off as just another cute outfit. Do you think artists want people to think their work is cute or classy? Haha no! They want to stop them dead in their tracks, they want jaws dropping in amazement, they want the emotion to overwhelm the audience to tears. That's what makes art and music so great, it has the compelling ability to MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETHING, fashion is no different.
Fashion is so much more than an outfit or look to me though, it's a way of life.Its the very lifeline that keeps me existing. From the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep, I am thinking about fashion. I'm either researching it, watching it, putting it together in my head, or reading something that pertains to it because thats my passion in life and it always will be.
And if you want a blunt explanation; I'm 22 years old, I don't have any children to pose as an image for. I've spent most of my life trying to make everyone happy, everyone except for the one person that should matter the most, myself. I also have the wonderful opportunity to just be carefree and worry about my happiness and that is simply being myself and wearing whatever I feel like.
There will always be someone judging you or someone to say; "I don't like you or what you stand for" but you have to remember for every person that hates you or what you do, there is also one person out there that likes you and what you're displaying. In the end, all you have is who you are and whether you decide to expose or hide it, will ultimately decide the regrets you will have in the end. I dont know about you but I'd much rather have "remember that one time" than "I wish I had done that."
So I hope that gives you some insight to whats going on with me. Thank you so much for reading and as always thank you for all your support and kind feedback, so many of you keep me constantly positive and inspired so again, THANK YOU and God bless!<3
XOXO Em
