A sincere thank you to all the beautiful souls in my life.

My dad started his chemo and radiation today. 

This experience has been completely eye opening for me. 

Not only has it taught me to live everyday with purpose, appreciation and love but also the true light of one's soul. It's amazing to see who is there for you through the outstanding hardships. 

Those that I had hoped would be there weren't and those that I never would have expected to be there, were offering my family the kindest gestures of support. 

I found this to be enlightening as well as incredibly disappointing. 

However I know this realization will only help me to see who's worth my energy and love and who isn't. 

For those of you that reached out with your support, checked on me and my family daily or offered not only encouraging words but your precious time and assistance in helping my family out, I want to sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

You're thoughtfulness and your eagerness to help us in any way you can means more to me than I will ever be able to explain and you will always have a special place in my heart.

 As for those of you that didn't care to reach out, I have forgiven you for your absence when I needed you the most. I can't afford to hold onto anything but love and positivity right now.

 I refuse to let any of this experience affect me in a negative way, everything that has happened or will happen from this moment on is a constructive blessing that will shape and transform me into the person I am striving to be everyday, it can only make my family and I stronger and that's the beauty I choose to focus on.

 I am beyond grateful for my family, my true friends and the most phenomenal staff at Mobile Infirmary, we certainly have the absolute best support team behind us and I just can't tell you how truly wonderful it is to know that.

Thank you for reading and all your continuous support, it means the world to me, wishing you all a wonderful day full of positivity and light and love. XOXO Em

My night with Tom Collins… a Photoshoot.

Hey guys miss me? :) I'm sorry it has been months since I have posted on here. The honest truth is I haven't really felt like posting anything, I haven't done a photo shoot in a while and my camera is still broken so that means no outfit posts. However saturday night, while pining over exes and almost lovers in a gin induced state, my friend and I decided an impromptu photo shoot was just what we needed to lift our spirits. After painting our faces and another glass of liquid courage, We grabbed a candle, a lighter and my camera and set off to find more light, Lana Del Rey's voice leading the way. Turns out I have a very large light source in my very own backyard so we didn't have to go far. We tried many ways to avoid using the flash but it was inevitable. Although, there were a few moments of "Oh wait.. that's really interesting looking!" This was just for fun, they weren't meant to be professional looking or for a purpose other than we needed a distraction from the mind chatter. Credit goes to my good friend Kirsten Martinez to see her actual work visit her page.

                 

I was so excited about how the candle fit perfectly in the tree haha.

Thanks for reading and I am going to try to get back into posting weekly if not daily so check back to see whats new with me :) Have a wonderful night, sending much love and good vibes to you all! <3Em

Florals and Stripes

Bodysuit and Hat from Forever 21, Skirt and Jewelry from Body Central, Jacket from H&M, Shoes from Ross

Hey guys long time no talk and I have a legitimate reason for that I swear. Lately I've been having a rough time. I slipped into a dark episode of depression and couldn't eat sleep or do anything besides cry for about a week. I lost my motivation to post anything fashion related hell I didn't even have the drive to research anything fashion related and thats saying something. But I'm starting to feel like myself again as well as eating and I have my anxiety attacks under control. So I thought I'd do an outfit post to get back in the swing of things :) I dont have much time to post because i have a really busy day tomorrow but I just love the look of floral prints and stripes worn together. Its a really playful combination and instantly trendy you really can't go wrong with pairing the two. 

Thanks for reading as always and thank you for all the awesome support I love getting your messages and comments you inspire me every single day! Wishing you all a wonderful week! I may not be on here as often because of work and I just got a casting audition for a movie being filmed in Mobile so I'll be busy with that and wont be able to post much but I will post daily on my tumblr because thats just reblogging and takes a second lol so feel free to follow me and stay in touch with me on there, love you guys<3

XOXO Em<3

Tumblr: here

Photos taken by Julie Derker, check out the rest of her awesome work here

"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose."

 

"hmm.. I think I should have another glass of wine."

Bustier- Victoria's Secret, Shorts- Body Central, Jacket- borrowed from my friend Bree (operation steal Bree's jacket to commence in 1800 hrs...Just kidding)

So here is part two of my edgy boudoir fashion photo shoot with the amazing Jessi Casara.  Like I said in the previous post, Jessi is all about capturing raw natural beauty and not messing with it which is really refreshing to me. For this part of the shoot, She and I thought it'd be fun to do a rock in roll high fashion chic theme. She had the brilliant idea to shoot in my closet above where my clothes hang in cabinets and to have elements of my closet styled around me such as purses, sunnies a glass figurine of the Eiffel tower. I thought it was pretty creative if you ask me! I believe she used her holga and her canon for this shoot and I couldn't be happier with the outcome, I absolutely love the vignette effect that the holga produced it really adds to the rock in roll aspect.

To see more of her stunning work click here. It is always a pleasure to work with Jessi, she really gets into it and her passion and excitement is contagious which in turn makes you enjoy the whole experience! As always, thank you for reading as well as your wonderful beautiful support I truly appreciate it and you. Hope you all have a good week full of good spirits and promise, until next time! 

XOXO Em<3

And I don't know what I've done to me...

Romper- Forever 21, Jewelry- Body Central, Wine- Moscato... is there any other kind?! :)

 I recently did a photo shoot with my bestest friend Jessi Lambert, who actually did my very first photo shoot last year called the sweater girl. She is so amazing at capturing the flaws you see everyday and turning them into something beautiful. She's all about natural beauty and emphasizing your "bad sides" in order to capture the raw essence of who your are. However, for this shoot we both wanted to step outside of our comfort zones and push boundaries a bit. I love boudoir shoots but they have started to all look the same to me. The girl is in some form of lingerie with gorgeous curly hair, natural make up in red or black stilettos either upside down with their legs in the air on their feet crossed laying on their stomach. And thats fine but everyone is or has done it so being the radical I am, I wanted to do something different. No lingerie but instead a floral romper, no curls but rather the opposite with grunge like straight hair, chunky gold statement jewelry in place of an understated strand of pearls and as for the make up, harsh and dark. I wanted it to look seedy motel room chic inspired by the "Live fast die young" motto and Jessi's holga couldn't have been more perfect for this. I'll have you know though only wine was responsible for this shoot and nothing else so please get those thoughts out of your head okay? It was just wine. Lots and lots of wine :) There's a part two to this shoot but I'm saving that for the next post! Wishing you guys a great week and for my Southerners out there Happy Mardi Gras! Much love and so many more thanks!!! 

Em<3

Ps. Click here to check out Jessi's beautiful photography and here to set up a shoot with her, I promise you will love the entire experience!